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i won second place speaker this afternoon. :)
it just figures like that, doesn't it? my first ever award in debate, and where was i when i was announced? jazz in the meadows. so typical. | | |
| and now it has been two months. this is an awkward feeling. it's like coming back to that old friend -- the one that you like, really, but you're not overly attached to -- and having to eat dinner with them. i want to keep a xanga up. i really do. it just gets increasingly difficult. what do i tell people about myself? do i tell them that my immune system has been moderately compromised over the last two months (moving from cold to sickness to flu to migraines)? do i tell them that i still haven't gotten an award in debate? what do i say about london? boston? i guess while this blog has remained blank, i have done a lot of living. living is hard. living takes a lot out of me. i get really jealous of kids who take really easy senior schedules. they get their homework done before dinner, and then maybe they have time to do something else that night. i feel like i'm running out of time. i count down the days until i have a week with minimum commitments. that is a big thing for me. :) i'm not trying to complain. i'm just talking out loud. kind of. typing out loud. more like that. maybe i will update more later. i just don't know what to tell you. | | |
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since my last post, i can gladly say that i was also accepted to illinois wesleyan. which was actually kind of delightful. i go in and out of phases where i love iwu. it's basically got everything i need, but then i think to myself, "well, oc went there..." and other people that i have very meh opinions about. it did sort of kill my motivation to apply to schools like northwestern/u of c because those schools are so expensive and probably much better for grad school. it's like -- now i have this very good school that i've got into with a very lovely scholarship, i don't feel the need to stress over a bunch of reach schools that take people i don't necessarily want to spend my time with anyway. SO. tomorrow i leave for london. this concept has yet to sink in. CRAZY. | | |
| i haven't updated in a long time.
this weekend i was accepted by u of i. everyone keeps telling me to be grateful but mostly i feel awkward because english is one of their weakest departments, but i have so many friends who were deferred/rejected so i keep trying to make it sound like a good time. i got nominated for my second speaking award in debate yesterday -- only to lose by two votes for second place speaker (we had a prospect judge in our room). my authorship was money, though, and i got one of my first fives on not my authorship. which was weird maybe. then i came home and was deferred from georgetown, as expected, and went out to dinner with the team which was less awkward and more hilarious. today i got my haircut (and straightened, aha). i really wanted to dye it but my mother had a panic attack before i left and cancelled the coloring. she says no one should ever dye hair unless it's going grey... so now i can just add that to the list of things i will do in college and not tell her about.
i feel like i shouldn't be upset about being deferred, but my parents keep telling all their friends/neighbors that "deferral was just a nice way of rejecting me early" and that i "didn't really think it was an option anyway". both of which are lies. so i wish that would stop. i didn't think it was not an option; i thought everything was an option. but i think i will mail a letter of intent and pull my name out from the running because it's just too much time and money to keep pursuing the school. i haven't decided yet.
i need to work on my university of chicago essays some more. | | |
| i got nominated for a speaking award at my first tournament of the year! ... i didn't win, but nomination alone is enough for now. :) that is all. | | |
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